Transcript Staff Writer

Kevin Ray Underwood spoke matter-of-factly about his plan to kill, rape and eat 10-year-old Jamie Rose Bolin in a videotaped confession shown Thursday in court.

The 28-year-old former grocery store stocker is on trial for the first-degree murder of Bolin, his Purcell neighbor. Underwood has shown no emotion during the trial this week and was unmoved as he watched his confession.

Underwood's parents, who have been at nearly all stages of the trial, were not there for the confession. Bolin's family also either did not show up or left during the explicit confession. The jury didn't react emotionally.

In the April 14, 2006, video, Underwood confessed to two FBI agents at the Purcell Police Department two days after Bolin went missing. At the beginning of the tape, Underwood said he felt nauseated. He spoke softly and had to be prompted with questions. As he launched into his plan, he became more animated and even excited about his plot.

Underwood told the FBI agents he hatched the plan after viewing cannibalistic pornography online and fantasizing about eating someone.

Underwood said at one point he started having these fantasies only recently. They started when he got back on his antidepressant medication, Lexapro, a few months before. At another point in the taped confession, he said his obsession with cannibalism began about a year before.

"It started off as cannibalism ... I wanted to know what it tasted like, just the thought of eating someone, and it was appealing to me," he said. "But then it kept kind of evolving from there 'cause I am, you know, sexually frustrated. I haven't had sex in four years."

Underwood said he masturbated frequently. Sometimes while he was watching children play outside his apartment and thinking about kidnapping and raping one, he would become so sexually aroused he couldn't go through with the plan.

"I'd just be hit with disgust, I mean like, 'My God, what am I thinking about? You can't do that, it's horrible,'" Underwood said.

Underwood said he had been looking at pornography online for about 12 or 13 years.

"There's a lot of weird stuff on the Internet, and so as the years went by, you know, I just kinda got kinda desensitized to normal porn," he said. "You have to just keep going after harder and harder core stuff."

Lately it had progressed to cannibalistic pictures he found on a Web site.

Underwood's plan included physically restraining someone with duct tape and handcuffs. He planned to behead and eat them.

He said until recently, though, he never would have thought of killing or eating someone.